Hi. Am 24. I was a very jolly kid in childhood. Had many frnds in school. But in class 11 I was bullied and made fun of by my friends. I didn't liked it. I got angry. Slowly everyone in class started teasing me. I started being alone. I avoided going out. Because of fear of meeting them and being made fun of. All this while I got so nervous that I didn't knew how to tackle all this. So I started masturbating. Because after masturbating I would feel relief of all the tension and thought of bulling and teasing. It continued for 1.5 year. Then I stopped going out. I didn't like going out. I had no interest in anything. Though I was an bright student. But didn't opt for higher studies because of fear that I will. Have to meet them at tution. I ignored them and we left the place. I would also add a point that they would call at night to disturb as a result till today I find it fearful to attend a call from unknown number. Di then started professional studies, but due to family problem study stopped and had to work. I came across a girl via FB. Became frnds. I started realizing that I had feeling I proposed she rejected buy said if I pass she will say yes. I had resume studies and I actually passed the next exam. But within few days rather than saying yes she made her friend call me. Who said he'll lot of things to me. I was unhappy. I tested her that she could have said so. Rather than making other people involving in it. I was hurt. I deleted my watsapp. She tested me after 4 months said sorry and accepted proposal of mine. I didn't force her or even ask her this time. I went to meet her. We had good talks. Meanwhile I failed next exam. And after she says she tested me saying she had no feelings and was trying to see if feelings could grow in her heart. I was damn sad. Requested her but she was angry and didn't reply. Everything was over. It's been 9 months all this memory coming back from school to this girl. I can't concentrate on anything. I don't like working anymore. No interest in anything. Feel like running away from everyone. I feel worthless. I feel disgusting. What to do. I can't memories properly. Thought about all this comes in mind. Every one says I have become short temperer. I am getting thinner day by day. And no happiness in life. please guide me. What to do.