Since few days I can't understand what is happening with me. I am facing problems in understanding who I am. As if I don't know myself. I try to speak at certain events but I end up remaining mum maybe because of being judged. I feel really lonely since I cannot open up to the people in Clg. Even in my home there's only my mum. I feel like I am not socially adapted. I was alone for a very long time and I don't understand what to speak or how to talk to me. People always see me as a loner. I have these thoughts running in my mind all day and cannot focus on one work at a time. How do I improve myself to be more fun and active? I even like a guy I try hard to speak to him but he always ignores me. How should I proceed to become friends with him. I doubt my mental health. I practice regularly to be with people. But when it comes to applying it n. I won't be able to speak. I love talking to people but it seems like I appear desperate.