Hi I am 17 and I feel very stressed. Suicidal thoughts come into my mind and I tried very hard to resist them but I did a big mistake because of it. I cut my arm. At that moment I felt a bit relieved but then pain and stress was back so I tried some anti-anxiety pills nothing happened then also. I don't know what is happening to me. I feel like I'm gonna die or like someone is choking me. I cry and cry. I don't feel good at all. I tried to tell my parents but they are not bothered about me and they do not get what I am trying to say. They are not willing to take me to the doctor. I want to feel better for once inna very long time but I keep hurting myself. My brain has completely shut down for positive thoughts. All I think is negative. I don't know how to help myself now. Those anti anxiety pills I mentioned above is Alprax, I have them without any doctors prescription. Should I continue to take them? Because it makes me stop thinking for a while but I don't know how many I should take in 1 day. Please help me. I cannot do this anymore I am tired of myself.