It all started when I was in engineering 2nd year (july 2015) when friends starts passing taunts on me. One after one incident happened in my life. And day by day I was getting depressed. The more I was getting depressed, the more I was consuming ganja (weed) and the number of taunts, comments (comments which took my imagination to my history which hurted me) were also increasing. And also under the consumption of ganja I was losing my imagination power by every time imagining something which I did not wanted to. It was all over depression, ganja, taunts, uncontrollable imagination. Than in Feb 2017, I started facing very heavy constant headache, heavy head, sometimes shortness of breath, depression, irritability, inability to sit somewhere etc. This all gone continuously for few months than I have to leave my college due to this mental health. In August, my parents took me to psychiatrist and I came under medications and counselling, it was somewhat a relief for me because my headache reduced and I was relaxed somewhat and because I was getting my health back I was happy and consumed ganja (weed) continuously for three days. 1st day of three days I discovered what panic attack is? In my life, than on second day I took it like its ok it happens sometime and had panic attack on that day too. But 3rd day was another worst day of my life when the magnitude of panic attack was so high that I felt I will die and went running to hospital & was admitted in emergency ward of hospital, having a pipe going through my nose to lungs so that I can breathe. It was a heavy panic attack. But all did not went right, I was continuously taking medicines so side effects started taking place like abdominal swelling, weight gain etc. So I changed my psychiatrist in january 2017 and started taking another psychiatrist medicine but under the medication of this psychiatrist, at evening time I felt like I was drunk or in nisha of something. But due to the degree of psychiatrist I trusted him and continued his medicines thinking 'jo hoga dekha jayega' but suddenly after 1 month a huge panic attack came again and I was on bed continuously for 3 days. Than again I have to go back to my old psychiatrist. He gave me medicine, I was getting relaxed and started feeling good but again those side effects of abdominal swelling and overweight started arising. So next I decided to go to delhi (october 2017 starting) and take the best psychiatrist medicine, and he prescribed me with some medicine (prescription attached) .and now I am taking medicines but still those old symptoms of panic attacks, constant headache, heavy head, anxiety, depression, uncontrollable thinking, restlessness, sexual irritability etc is there... At last, I want to know, will I be ever cured in my life? Will I be able to breathe like normal human being, will I be able to live my life normally? Will I get normal someday? .How much time will it take me to get my health back and live a healthy life? .Please tell me, answer me. I am really depressed with this. Every night before sleeping I think how will I live another day with this health?