I asked for help but people thinks that I'm faking my depression for attention. Im 23 almost and no friends to have fun or relationship. I never had any female friends it makes me feel very empty at this age. My friends & sisters they didn't help me when I asked for help for relationships or new friends. I'm alone nobody talks to me now. Trying to get a job but no luck from past 2 years. I'm tired of doing day to day life. I have no interest left to do anything. I just want to disappear or die but not suicidal. I stuck in loop and next time I feel empty. My friends and family members have 2nd or 3rd relationships and that bothers me I feel jealous because I never had one. I once ate 2 nutmeg powder to kill myself but I didn't die I felt dizzy for 2 days. I don't have any source to make friends. I smoke every day just to get cancer because I see no hope for my future. I got depression. Please suggest.