I am 17 years old boy .I am having thoughts of doing Rape .My mind tells me to rape a hot looking girl .This type of thoughts are coming from 1 week. I sexually abused many random girls by telling I love your pus**,b**bs, a**,etc and all that on Facebook by chatting. I told this from 1 week .I followed a 17 Years old girl on a garden continuously for 45 minutes and for 2 days. I am Masturbating 3 times a day and sometimes watching po*n photos. I had tried to listen meditation music but it doesn't help me. Please suggest me the best advice? And please don't tell me to meet a Psychiatrist because My parents doesn't know this? And I am not earning money so that I can meet a Psychiatrist? Please I am requesting you to suggest the best advice for the sake of Women's security? And please note that I am very serious. Don't take it casually. I may be the danger person for women in future. This thoughts are really occurring in my mind.