My worries started from my 10th standard after my mom passaway after surviving one month in the hospital and I am the young son in the family but I take care of everything due to my father got paralysis ago my studies also not good at all due to financial problems and after 3 years suddenly my dad also died due to heart attack from that time onwards I started thinking negatively and I started avoiding friends and going out playing basketball etc and then my family members started saying I am dumb I even can't do anything they always uses me like they servant they never take care of me then I started fear of future in past I attempted suicide but I failed due to lack of knowledge then I spended more two years thinking about my worst future now I became so disappointed even thoughts makes me unable think positive not able to concentrate not able to drive bike due to I can't control even I get confused left or right side and day by day passes my life ruining but one thing is sure that one day am going to commit suicide successfully now I wrote note because I want to aware you guys not to ruin your life like I ruined my life believing people around me.

Dr. Saul PereiraPsychologist47yrs exp

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You have indeed gone through hell already by 23 years. I do not envy your position nor the situation you are in vis-�-vis your extended family not willing to see your problems and not being of support. But you must remember that this is your life. When you think of ending it, it means only one thing that you are treating yourself like the other people: that is you are hurting yourself and wanting to end your life!!! So in essence you are living or not living your life but what other people expect of you, which is to ruin it. You are in charge of your life and what you make of it. You are not accountable to anybody but to god and yourself. Please listen to me: go meet a counselor and talk these matters over. Do not do anything foolish about your life but make a good plan to both work and study. Start in a small way and step by step grow up in life and the society you live in. Do not bother what other people say unless it is true. It is possible to regain all your family lost glory and come back to life with a vengeance. See if you can connect with a relative who has some sympathy or better still if they have empathy towards your cause and together with that support act on your plans. You have to convince them of your determination and genuineness. Do not let ego or pride come in the way of your reaching out to others. Also meet with your doctor because one of the side-effects of your medicine is to have suicidal tendencies. I love that you want others to learn but not through your death. In fact, they will see that it is because of these problems that you took control of your life and made it: that sure will be a good example and role model for others to learn from you. Let me proud of you too, okay? I have helped a person aged 35 years without education, suffering from TB and drug addiction and having a very serious criminal past come out of his mess: he got married to a doctor!, and currently he is the director of an institute!!! I remember that his first investment was something he was very passionate about: a walkman set!!! 

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