Hi I am 21 years old I was working enjoying my job but after having severe panic attacks dizziness of ganja withdrawal.(13 month later) I still feel hopeless sad cry unable to watch tv .hard to use computer more than 20 min .if I go to job I feel scared low hopeless zero confidence and life is end now. After coming from job I feel restless cry guilty eye ache heavy head eyes and freaked out everything looks weird. My brain damaged permanently? If I l b like this how I will live? If I will not earn then how I will marry? My life is useless if there is no cure then suicide will be better. I slapped my self today 4 times cz after coming frm work I was tired low crying sadd as hell like I felt like I climbed mountain and so much stress so much stress oh god I can not even calm amd rest after my work. please plz is there have any real working medicine? If I am not busy then my thoughts run like hell I feel like I am loosing my control. Any way doctor any way? Or I am mental patient cz of 1 joint per day for 2 month I smoked and my brain damaged forever I am scared of medicines I know they can damage me and it will not work too but I am confused please I wanna do job like before and I want happiness back I hope I am not damaged forever.