I got married to my boyfriend of 10 years and we both love each other a lot. But we had 2-3 years of long distance relationship, where I got to know that he was in conversation with a girl and they became very close friends & also kind of started seeing each other. He admitted that it happened as he was lonely and there was mutual attraction. But he never wanted to marry her. It led to a big scuffle & in the end I had to forgive him and we got married last year. He has been trying to keep me happy & I am happy with him but whenever we argue, I always bring that topic as it still keeps playing in the back of my mind. There is not a single day I do not think about that female or what might have happened. It has affected me very deeply & I am not able to come out of it even though its been almost 2 years.